Okay. Okay. Breathe.

CHEN: basahin mo 'to, naka-relate na ako sa isang problema mo. Ganito pala feeling. HAHAHAHA. =)))

Ganito pala feeling ni Chen. Naiintindihan ko na. Una, hindi naman naging kami, isang buwan lang yun, at what not super no strings attached. HAHAHA. we just enjoyed the moment.

Anyway, nung sinabi mo sa akin na like mo siya sabi ko mas gusto ko yung friend niya kasi yun PRETTY sa standards ko ng pretty. okay? e kasi ang gusto mo yung isa. shrimpy, all i could say was okay. but you knew from the start that i don't find her pretty. HAHAHA.

And now, i accidentally stumbled upon something that reminded me of you. and WTH, i don't know what to feel. When i saw it, it felt like my heart was ripping my chest just so it could get out. Dayum. Affected yata ako e? HAHAHA. funeh.

Okay. let's operationalize:

Person A finds Person B pretty (pretty naman talaga), and s/he finds Person C pretty too (na hindi naman masiyado)., and s/he finds me pretty, e cute na lang pala HAHA (which is oo naman yata. HAHAHAHAHA =)))) )

Ako naman, i find Person B pretty, Person C NOT PRETTY, and of course for the sake of love for one's self, i find myself cute.

ngayon, e inconsistent ang standard niya ng pretty, feeling ko tuloy hindi din ako ganun ka-valuable kasi parang kinompare na rin niya ako kay Person C. HAHAHA. gets? gets? aw?

okay. i'm fine now. nasulat ko na hinaing ko. XD

na-bother lang ako pero i'm okay now. HAHAHA :D

yebaybeh. :D

In connection to my first personal message to you late last month (i think), we have decided to push through with the reunion. :) CHEERS!

since i'm tired of FS' inefficient mail sending message, I'll leave this for everyone as some SHB peeps from friendster also check this site from time to time. So far around 10 people said YES (16 with the majority of the Seniors May 'O4) for the gathering on December. Final date, time and place are still being discussed. Will inform you guys soon.

Those people who had not texted me yet but have committed through PM, kindly SMS me so i can easily keep tract of those people who are sure to attend the event.

If you are having doubts if you can attend or not, then your RSVP will be "not sure", don't confuse it with "sure". :| we don't want to fail yet again. once is enough.

keep you guys posted.

:)

I just miss me.
I miss myself.
My simple sleep-eat-sleep cycle.
More weekends of going out with Mom.
I wish it's always vacation.
Stay at home.
Relax.
Sigh.

I am starting to get tired of doing same things everyday at school.
Rye's going to graduate on March.
I will miss him.
I will not be able to harass him to see me when i want and need to.
I miss Arlia.
Loser, i long for some people.

Argh. I am tired.
I am. I am.
Intellectual and Physical burn out.

Tired.

HEY HEY HEY! Kindly visit http://packshirts.multiply.com :) LOADS of t-shirt designs for everyone! MAKE YOUR SCHOOL PROUD! hahaha! :D

Designs include statements and school angas shirts. YOWN. angas pala! HAHAHAH :))



OMB! mag-order na kayo! mura lang to HAHAHA. rich kids naman kayou e! :D

her DSL's back! *cries* after a loooong wait. i am back permanently. enough of bayantel's dial-up services. HOHOHO. me is happy me is happier me is happiest! :D:D:D:D

i wanna dance! HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO. dance with me? :D:D:D

Hmm, since i have nothing to do, i decided to surf the net and read Nostradamus. Hmm, nung monday napag-usapan namin yung tungkol sa pagkakapanalo ni Obama. Si Pauwee yata yung nagmention tungkol dito. Na kapag black ang nagwaging President sa strongest country dito magsisimula ang World War3 . Skuurd. so i tried looking for that particular prophecy, pero wala pa naman akong nakikita so far. ito pa lang:

The year the great seventh number is accomplished,
Appearing at the time of the great games of slaughter:
Not far from the age of the great millennium,
When the dead will come out of their graves.

Dahil fan ako ng mga ganitong bagay, at nagrent pa talaga ako ng CD noon kay Nostra, binasa ko talaga yung 10 pages. :)) nakita ko yan. shrimpy hindi naman natin masasabi na totoo siya, uhuh, uhuh. BUT it is interesting. the italicized is read as:

This quatrain has driven many numerologists and scholars mad as they try and divine the true meaning of the number 7. Some have interpreted to mean that the quatrains make sense if every seventh quatrain is read in order like a narrative. Many have interpreted it to mean the year 2007 and still others 2070 which according to other Nostradamus quatrains is the year when World War III ends and the years of peace that lead to the end of the world begin!

wao. nice noh. and mukhang itutuloy tuloy ko na 'to hanggang pagdating ko sa bahay mamaya. :D hahuuuum. wala namang masama, lalo na at nabanggit din dito yung tungkol sa anti-christ, na nabanggit din sa the omen. :D ayoko talaga ng revelations, i mean yung book sa bible, nakakatakot kasi, pero mukhang mamaya, mapapabasa ako ulit. XD

hahuuuuuum.

**italicized parts are from here: http://www.nostradamus101.com/prophecies/part4/P9/

what the hell am i supposed to do? :D just finished econ100.1, next class at 1pm then another break and then class at 4. O_O

what am i to doooooooo. O_O

The family’s bundle of joy is dead. And no one can ever replace her. Teardrops on my laptop, tears kept falling as I am typing this letter. I am sobbing like there’s no tomorrow. I can still feel her cold skin against my hands and chest. She was my best friend. She was my playmate and I loved her more than my own nephew.

She was my parents adopted daughter. My adopted sister, no, she was my sister. She came in our family early September, when she was just a few weeks old. She was really tiny. Her eyes were full of beauty and life. I loved her nose more than my mine. She was the loveliest being that ever came to me.

We took good care of her. No, we gave her the best care possible for someone. I even took time to feed her when I get home. And I would look for her first before my own food. I would gently kiss her nose and carry her. Mumbling words only a baby could understand while I look deep in her life-filled eyes. She would respond to me, putting her hand against my index finger while I gently touch her nose.

She was my joy. She was our joy. Our family became happier because of her. My dad would play with her, it was my first time to see my dad acting like a child when she’s with him. My mom laughed harder because of her. She was more obedient to my mom than me. My mom would even feed her much delicious ulam than what my dad and I eat.

She was with me while I was doing my ComRes research. She was with me the whole time. Sleeping beside me while I work. She, instead of my group mates, was there while I work in the ungodly hours of dawn. Every paper, she was there. She kept me company.

Like right now, this usual scene me typing on my bed in my laptop. She would just suddenly jump on my bed and play around. Sometimes, she would just walk on my keyboard, t’was as if she would want me to stop working and take a rest. And when she gets tired she would just lay on my lap.

Her Death

When she was little, I’ll take her to bed. We would sleep together. She would walk to my neck and sleep there because she was cold. And her death pains me so bad. She drowned.

I told my mom to close the door as to prevent her from going out. But as always, she would find a way. Haha. Around 9 PM we started calling out for her. But we assumed she was just playing with her usual playmate. And by 10, my mom, my Kuya and I went out to look for her. We looked everywhere but found her nowhere. Not until we asked our neighbor if she saw our little bundle of joy. Our neighbor said yes. and even went with us to show where she was. Inside a water-filled drum.

I turned to my mom and she was the one who took her out of that god-forsaken thing. She held her out and couldn’t believe. I took her from my mom’s hands and carried her the way I always do when I get home. But this time as I look in her eyes, I couldn’t see the life. She wouldn’t even move her hands to push my finger. I was so desperate I still called her name, waiting her to respond. But she won’t

I kept her safe. Would even hug her when I know she’s feeling cold. We share the same blanket. And I can’t even imagine her dying of cold. The idea impales my skin, every muscle, every bone, and my heart, making me bleed so bad. Making my tears fall endlessly.

I couldn’t imagine her dying inside that f*ck*ng drum, my neighbor said they were hearing sounds from it but they didn’t take time to check. HOW COULD A KITTY GET INSIDE A 3 FEET DRUM? For god’s sake, I can’t imagine her, helplessly grasping for air or for anyone who could have helped her. Perhaps she was thinking of me, but I was not there to save her.

I am more than disappointed, I am more than in anguish. I am much hurt more than a break-up. I couldn’t stop from crying. Until now.

Miming/ MM

I can still remember when she first meowed. I was happy to hear her and I even textbrigged that our bundle of joy—a kitty, had already spoken. That was such a happy moment for everyone.

I’ve cried when our pet dog Peewee got kidnapped in 2002 (yes, and I’ve prayed for the souls of those people), when our pet dog Clover died of heart attack in 2005. But their passing pale in every way compared to Miming’s death.

Miming will not be there to sleep with me. She will not be there to play with me. Taking away every stress in my life. I wouldn't get to flush her poopoo inside the bathroom. She will not be there to add to our happiness. We treated her as a human. We gave her everything she needed. And it pains all of us all in her death.

Think back to your 1st sem in college.
Let's see how much you remember and how much you regret.

What section were you?
- That's block for me. Proud to be a G10-er :D

Who were your seatmates?
- Let's see if i can remember well ei?
CS11: Angela and Onie
Math17: Edison (kasi nasa pader ako kaya siya lang)
Eng10: Camille, Kenneth and Mickey
Geol1: Ruby (nasa pader din ako kaya isa lang :)))
Kas1: Dianne, Lalilen
PE2-TPBwling: Pierre, Ate Rica (lanemates na katabi ko palagi)

Still remember your English teacher?
- Yep. Prof. Anna Melinda Testa de-Ocampo. English 10: College English

What was your first class?
- My first was Eng10 MTH, 113o-1oopm, AS room 325

Best friends?
- nung first year? wala e. good friends lang. :D wala pa akong attachment nun sa blockmates ko maliban kay Rye. :) Mga miserymates ko sila Angela, Onie, Rose Ann at Shyne. :)

How was your class schedule?
- HAHAHA. it was kewl. kapagod lang kasi palipat-lipat ng building >_<

Made any enemies?
- Nope. :)

Who was your favorite teacher/s?
- Si Ma'am Rina ng CS11. :) Sir Dennis ng Math17. Sir Victor ng Geol1. :)


Back then, do you always buy your lunch?
- Nah. Don't have time for lunch then e. laging after class sa CASAA. :)

Were you a party animal?
- Nope. :) WALANG ORAS PUMARTEY! Ikaw kaya bugbugin ng MP? HAHAH

Were you well known in your school?
- HAHAHA. Nope. i've been a high profile student since elementary, tama na ang college. lielow naman. :)) AHAHA =))

Did you get suspended/expelled?
- Nah.

Can you sing the alma mater?
- Nope. until now first line lang ang alam ko. boohoo. >_<

What was your favorite subject?
- Geol1. :)

What was your school's full name?
- University of the Philippines-Diliman

Where did you go most often during breaks?
- Hmm, wala ako masiyadong breaks nun e. Kasi tuloy-tuloy yung class ko. :P

What color of pen do you always use?
- Black. :D

Recited often?
- Sa geol1, comm3 at kas1, bibbo kid. HAHAHA. :))

Ever cheated?
- Sa exams? no. HAHAHA.

Do you bring your own paper and pen?
- Yup. OC ako nun e. May 1/4 pa akong dala. :))

Are you in the top ten of your class/es?
- Sa Kas1 siguro. :)) HAHAHA.

Favorite things to do in class?
- Sa Eng10, makinig kahit seryosong nalulunod na ako sa discussion HAHAHA. :))

Classmates you didn't like?
- Hmm, sa Eng10 meron. ang daldal e. Hindi siya bibbo, EPAL siya. :))

Subjects with highest grade?
- Comm3. Geol1. :D .

Lowest?
- MATTTTTTTTH.

Ever had a crush? Who?
- Wala yata nung first year e. HAHAHA.

What's your theme song for him/her?
- n/a

Which of your classes was he/she in?
- n/a

Fave events in 1st sem?
- sembreak at ACLE. =))

What are your favorite classrooms?
- Lab room sa 5th floor sa Engg. :)) at sa NIGS. :)

Do you sleep in class?
- Nope.

Ever thought of burning your school?
- Neverrrrr.

Ever messed with a prof?
- Nope. bad yun.

What do you miss most in your 1st sem?
- maghanap ng building kasi hindi pa alam kung saan. :)) maghanap ng shortcuts para hindi malate HAHAHA.

If you could go back in time and do it all over, would you?
- Yep. I'll be a BETTER freshie then.

Where do you spot the hot girls in your school?
- Kahit saan. pakalat-kalat. o kaya sa mirror ng CR. XD

Ever gone on a field trip?
- Nope. walang fieldtrip nung freshie ako e :P

Dorm, Boarding house or your home?
- Home sweet home. :)

If you had your way, what was your dream course/major?
- MBB. HAHAHA. :)) Journ na agad. :)

First ever person you knew?
- Camille from Eng10.

First play you ever watched?
- hmm. wala yata e.

Ever been recruited by a frat or sorority?
- nope.

Is it fun in your school?
- you bet.

Ever gone rallying?
- nope. :)

Did you ever dream of having honors for your first sem?
- Nope.

If you weren't studying in your present school now, where would you go?
- ATENEO DE MANILA UNIVERSITYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

What do you remember most about 1st sem?
- ULTIMATE PAHIRAP+HAGGARD+TENSION+STRESS=BS COMPUTER SCIENCE.